What are we supposed to do if there is no silver lining? I mean those types of situations do exist. There is no light at the end of the tunnel. There is no foot holes or climbing ropes or anything at all to help us get out of the hole we fell into. So what do we do? Do we do nothing & just let the big, fat, ugly grey storm cloud rain on our parade? Or do we take the grey & make a silver lining out of it ourselves? I mean grey & silver are pretty close, you know? So the option to make it happen isn’t far from reach.

Then there is the question of do we even want to reach? Do we think it’s our job to make one ourselves? Or do we think that’s God’s responsibility? Because He’s the one who gave us that situation anyways. He’s the One who put us there. So isn’t it His job to provide even the smallest of rainbows after the storm? To give us a little bit of hope so we can keep moving forward? So who’s job is it? His or ours? I mean I’m pretty sure it could be argued both ways of who’s job it is to make/provide a silver lining, but what’s the right answer? I’m not really sure that there is one. But to me, I feel like there always has to be something good that comes from the bad. That there has to be a silver lining. Even if it’s homemade from scratch & is a little flawed. It has to be there. Otherwise what are we even fighting for?

Sometimes it’s hard to put forth an effort when you finish climbing a mountain. I mean don’t get me wrong, you feel pretty darn good about yourself for surviving the climb, but eventually that “Cloud 9” feeling will wear off. You’re eyes will begin to get tired & your muscles will get sore. And then suddenly all you’re going to be left with is a tired mind full of memories and an aching body. And I’m not talking a little bit tired, I’m talking a lot a bit tired. And so you get mad. Mad at yourself. Mad at God. Mad at your situation. Because not only did God give you this ginormous mountain to climb, you now feel 87 at the age of 27. And to put the cherry on top, you now have to hand sew your own silver lining. And that’s only after you actually find something to make it out of. I mean where’s the fairness in that? Yah, I know, no one ever said life is fair. But it’d still be nice to feel like we caught a break sometimes.

So where are we at? Oh yah. Crappy situation with no silver lining in sight. Is that ok? Or no? It’s hard to answer that because of all the variables, but I think I’m going to go with that it’s ok if there is none. It’s ok if we have to make one ourselves. Because that means we still have hope. That we can sometimes give ourselves the hope we need instead of looking elsewhere to gain some. The world is full of wonderful & inspiring stories, there is no doubting that. But to inspire ourselves? That an amazing feat. Because that means we know what we are made of. We know that we have the grit & the substance & the imagination to make/find our own sunshine. To find our own silver lining. To make our own lemonade despite all of the odds. To discover that it’s going to take more than an impossible mountain to break us. And even after the climb is over and we are exhausted, we still find a way to be hopeful instead of angry. Thankful instead of hateful. To keep our eyes open & our hearts filled. And that right there can be the silver lining we struggled to find right away. The world & the situations we have been given did not make us bitter or less human. It made us stronger & hopeful & filled with perspective. And those things, every single one of them, are things worth climbing another mountain for. Are worth the time & effort to make your own silver lining for. So the next time you think there is no silver lining make sure you are looking with hopeful eyes & a proud heart. Because if you are, I know you’ll find one.

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