I’m scared of getting older. Not that I am scared of growing up or the responsibilities that come with age, but the actual time concept of getting older. Because time changes everything. Time changes strength. Time changes likes and dislikes. Time changes taste. And you change. And while change is often necessary, it is scary. And though I am not scared to make my age number go up, I am scared of what comes with it. More wisdom. The more you know, the more opportunity you have to worry. I am not saying you should capitalize on the opportunity, I am just saying it exists.

I know the body gets more fragile with time. So it’s highly likely that I worry about my knees, and joints, and entire body aging on one leg. How does one handle a knee or hip replacement on one leg? I’m sure it’s possible, but the fear still exists. I am scared that I will end up in a nursing home at the age of 50 because I might be too much for my husband to care for. I know that if I am growing older that means my husband is too. And while I am confident that he will stay his strong self, I also know that you never know what the future holds. I’m just scared that my kids are going to be embarrassed of me for many, many years. I know that most kids are embarrassed by their mom anyway at some point in time but lets be honest, kids don’t appreciate different much until they are a little older. I’m just flat out scared of so much that I’m not sure I would be scared of if I was still 2 Legged Josie. But I do know one thing I am not scared of. Reality.

I’m not scared of the path I have been given. I am actually pretty ok with it all. Besides a few details, I believe I am living 15 year old Josie’s idea of her life at 27. And I don’t think I can really complain about that? Sure I have fears, but don’t we all? One leg, 2 legs, or no legs will not change that. Time may change our fears, but they will always exist. No matter how head on you face your life. So today I challenge you to be oblivious to any wisdom or knowledge you may hold and just be happy with today. Don’t be scared of tomorrow. Because just as time changes everything, you can change things too. And often times the right kind change starts with a smile on your face. Because happiness might be able to change your destiny or you things that are out of your control, but it can change your life.

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